Monthly Archive for May, 2005

happy sunday

weekend is good huh?

spend all weekend tgk dvd. actually i spent like some 120 bucks on dvds

Jersey Girls is fucking awesome yo! judd kena tgk douh, best gila

it’s sunday and i’m going to spend all day in my towel

i’m fucking happy because someone is going to do something for me. whatever happens in the future, i don’t really care anymore. because what he’s going to do means so much to me and i’m not going to take things for granted anymore. hope this works… whoelse could you count on right?

i have a new yahoo id and email address contact me using budakkepak(at)yahoo(dot)com

yahoo id budakkepak

budakkepak = my alter ego kut?

Palm Trees and the Open Sea

“Memory”

This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I’d be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart’s beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
I’ll tear us apart.
Can I be your enemy?
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you here
I’d be your anything.

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart’s beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
Tearing out my heart.
I’d be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
(I’d be your memory)
Feelings disappear.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart’s beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
We could fall apart
And I’d be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
Can I be your memory?

Sugarcult

my own worst enemy

great weekend. great company…

i won’t forget, i won’t forget…

on the way back, a friend mentioned about ‘hoping for the best, and preparing for the worst’

i thought of it. and straight away i look for it

Muhammad Saiful Helmi, kau ni mmg bodoh

hope for the best? haha, very funny . i got what i wanted, it’s the best thing. but in expense, i may have lost everything i’ve built. tak faham? takpe laa…

and the worst is yet to come. so i’m preparing for it

i guess the saying ‘not knowing is better than knowing is true’

sekarang baru menyesal…

Show Us the Moneyyy!!!

HEEYAAARRRGGGHHH!!! Show us the moneyyy!!!

baru dpt tadi kat buletin board myspace…

bulan lahir and personality. funny, it’s almost true even i don’t believe it at all

JUNE:
Easy to talk to. Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.

the conversation

i have this thing i kept thinking about whenever i have a conversation with a girl. i wish one time she would ask me something, something personal or deep or whatever and instead of coming up with an answer right away, i’d ask her back whether she want me to lie or be honest about it

i got the chance last night. of course laa i took it

and she wanted me to lie. but why?

she said if she told me to be honest, i’d lie to her anyway…

i was like… damn it, i didn’t see that coming

so i told her the truth. i was going to anyways. no point lie-ing to myself now. kalau tipu dia pun cam tipu diri sendiri jugak. Pn Noridah, my standard 2 english teacher taught me that. i hope she taught my brother the same valuable lesson too

‘Selamat Hari Guru’ cikgu!!!

cikgu yg paling aku ingat… mesti laa Pn Rahmah. cikgu darjah satu. if it wasn’t for her, i wouldn’t even know how to count, read, abc…

dia juga suka ketuk kepala aku kalau aku bising duk gaduh ngan mustapa. i wonder what happen to tapa

after this while, i still keep on wondering. tanak dah… time to go out and find the truth

i made a promise to her. last night she said something and it seem she doubt i can keep my promise. all night i kept on thinking and i doubt myself whether i could keep my promise or not. WTF?!?!?! ok laa… not all night, i thought about it kejap je, lepas tu tertido. but still the thought stuck on my mind. but this morning, between breakfast and the long drive to work i finally come to my senses. by making that promise, i already made it clear that i don’t want to lose her, and i will keep that promise. why? because if i don’t, i might just quit now and join the statistics (ayat atom ni)

screw my insecurities. life is short, let’s make the most out of it

RM 30000, here we come!!!