Monthly Archive for January, 2005

crunch time

crunch time is over. and i fail to impress. again

i don’t know why i do the things i do. for the recognition? still not getting any. self satisfaction? duh, i find myself hard to satisfy nowadays. i wonder why

time after time i got a lot of chances to change things around, but i just seem to dissappoint everytime. talk about another chance huh?

just give me another one

fuck it

i need to keep going and not letting this little voices telling me i’m not good enough. i’ll be good enough one day

i only wish that day would come earlier, like yesterday

break stuff

tajuk entry ini ialah break stuff

reminded me of the year 1999. the year when i listen to limp bizkut and korn excessively. i mean i listen to them a lot, like all the time

tak tahu kenapa. sometimes we do meaningful things, but most of the time we do meaningless crap just for the attention

break stuff was one of my favorite song from limp bizkut. the song would be at the top of the playlist everyday. bangun tido dengar time nak tido pun dengar, bukan nak baca doa

anyways, bukan nak bukak cerita lama. just what i felt today made me thought of 1999. 1999 tahun kecewa douh. hari ni aku rasa cam nak pecahkan sesuatu. tak kisah laa apa pun. asalkan boleh pecah. kereta ke, monitor 21 inci ke, belon ke, dara ke. tapi preferably aku nak pecahkan muka orang. ada laa muka sorang i aku nak pecahkan. aarrrgghh kecewa nya

naruto baru dah keluar. right on time… barulah motivated

zikir dosa lagi pagi ni

poyo

i’m a loser

hopeful to make the grade. mesti siapkan by monday. no excuse. haih!

pagi tadi nyaris terlupa gosok gigi

perverts go to the toilet

perverts don’t go to jail. they go to the toilet. Selamat Hari Raya Korban!!! esok jangan lupa gi tolong potong lembu kat mesjid. boleh scout bakal bini

motivation

being highly motivated must suck

because…

i am not motivated. so i don’t bother making any commitments. if i make any, i am very sure that i am going to screw it up. yeay!

like what happened last weekend. i’ve made commitments to:

1. go out with the two gemuks and a chick, watch a movie (done)
2. finish xenosaga episode 1 (not done)
3. futsal (done)
4. watch liverpool vs manchester united (done)
5. start sketching february submission (not done!!! not even started!!!)

see. i’ve made 5 commitments and i did 3 out of 5. that’s 60%, it’s like a B in college. oh my God, i are WINNAR!!!

february submission, must… not… screw… it… up…

i got a comment from a reader of the first zine!!! oh my God!!! here’s what he said

Stone (the editor), Mintak maaf cakap ye, content artikel aku rasa OK tapi… artwork komik nampak kosong, takde background (terutama komik depan ; mata pen tak pelbagai dan background dia langsung takde.) Tapi bleh ampun la pasal ni first projek ko. Lain2 OK!

oh my God!!! i are LOSERSSS!!!

so i reply with…

hehehe… aku suka komen yg honest. tapi kau tengok komik tu, kau ada rasa nak muntah tak? hehehe…

i hope he didn’t project any vomit. but if he did, he must have been very excited