Monthly Archive for July, 2004

i’m so horny

yesterday i went browsing on friendster and myspace. looking out for new photos of the people in my list, and in my favourites/bookmarks list. yes, i bookmark all those chicks who rejected my “add this chick as a friend” application

a little stalker action going on there haa?

i didn’t find much to stalk anyway. i’m not gonna get anything anyway. but the internet makes it so easy. i can’t help it

back to the point. i found a few pictures of this girl. a girl i’ve been stalking on myspace. the pictures were a bit sexual to my liking. no nudies, but fucking sexual. i felt a little funny. yanno, the funny feeling you got when you finally watched the greatest porn on earth

it’s the funny feeling man, left me tersengih-sengih sorang? on my side of the cube

aku sengih je

perverts go to jail

unwanted distractions

there are a lot of distractions in my life

identify and eliminate

it’s not going to be easy. but i’m doing my best

i will go out every morning hoping for a brighter day

but

but, the rain keep on falling

and the days are so cold alone

TAK DAPAT MENERUSKAN TIDO MENIKMATI KESEJUKAN ALAM!!! UWAAAA!!!

keep chasing my dream and holding on to the next best thing

The OC… i like very much. i should be a geek and listen to emo

uselessness

this is bugging me now. the fact that they might find me useless. no one left to blame but myself

i’m just sitting here waiting for things to happen. i know they have expectations, but it seems that i can’t live up to that expectation

i’m useless. everything i do. i can’t do it right, i can’t make things happen, not even to myself

this body is hurting, this mind is not alright, this soul is screaming for something

i wish i’m a better person

a wish is just a wish. bodo punya budak

maybe i belong in a junkyard

“carjunk” haha!

unhappiness

what is happiness?

getting good grades? having sex with the olsen twins? driving the fastest car in the world? running around naked in shopping malls? a good conversation? dream job? fantasizing that you’re having sex with the olsen twins?

i don’t know what happiness is

maybe i should keep on not knowing it. because if i know happiness and i have it, then i might lose it one day, and i won’t be happy anymore

but i want happiness, and i want to know what it is

argh fuck, i’d never get what i want anyway. so why bother?

“ramai orang boleh melukis, tapi tak semua boleh buat komik” – someguy and pergh.com forum

this quote made me think twice about my dream. i don’t know what my dream is now. maybe i made it up just to jump in the bandwagon, like everybody else. always have something to look forward to

maybe this dream is a joke. maybe it’s my saviour

i hope for it to be a gift, my saviour. everyone’s been telling me i’m doing fine. but i think i’m no good at all. is there something wrong with me?