Monthly Archive for September, 2003

Published on September 30, 2003 in General. 10 Comments

not knowing is definately better than knowing!

what i wrote up there doesn’t have anything to do with the rest of my entry. it’s just the way i’m feeling now

during the weekend i was able to witness the first ever anime fest held in in malaysia. well, at least i think it’s the first. it was ok. there were like millions of people turned up for the event, which made it suck. the organizers should have made it a little more interesting though. if you weren’t taking part in any competition, the whole event would just screamin’ “I SUCK!!!”

i was anticipating into watching the art demo by aimo and the gang. but people just won’t move from in front of them. bodoh laa, kasik laa aku tengok pulak!!!

at last i gave up and balik rumah

on the downside. i did ask that girl out that day right? i called her and she never answer. lagi best, she never return the call. i bet i left a few missed call messages on her phone, tapi still takde return. i call and call, either takde orang jawab or she just simply turned it off

i remembered i read some female bloggers punya entries… about how they would complain this guy asik call laa, that guy asik call laa when they’re not attracted to him laa, bla bla bla laa…

i’m thinking, this might be the case here. kata lah i’m a supermacho dude yg ego nye besar rumah, drive kereta eksoz berapi, ade abs ketul ketul, rambut cacak, ade rock band ke, surely she’ll return every singlemissed call even though it says 9 billion missed calls on her cell phone

i’m not mad at her. she’s a great girl. i know that. a lot of people would say only good things about her. it’s myself that i’m worried about. is being honest and being myself not enough for others to see and know that i’m exist. i wish i knew what others honestly think about me. but not knowing is better than knowing kan?

guess i’ll go on. pretend nothing happen. hide all those frustrations, hope it will all go away

screaming infidelities

Published on September 26, 2003 in General. 9 Comments

screaming infidelities mmg syok zek

i asked her again about tomorrow. yanno, tomorrow ada AXN anime fest. these were her exact words:

‘bley gak.. tapi tak confirm lagi aa’

well, keep the dream alive yek. i doubt it’s on. anyways, anybody who wish to join me can call, e-mail, shout, or whatever ways you wish to reach me. i’ll be there around 2 – 2.30. zek, shuq korang taknak gi ke? there’s a sumo wrestling tournament. prospect for us to monopoly the game. sorry can’t call you guys. my prepaid dah kaputt

places i have come to fear the most

Published on September 22, 2003 in General. 8 Comments

i have never listened to dashboard confessional. freakin emo. yeay to them! i saw their Hands Down video on [V] and the song is just right. hoh!

teringat dah lama tak dengar The Get Up Kids

i’ve always have this feeling that i have known enough when the reality is i know nothing. ‘not knowing sometimes better than knowing’ right? i’m going to be fine coz the thoughts of achieving my dreams is always on my mind. no matter how much fuck-ups i’m making, i’m going to do all my best to un-fucked them

on the lighter note. i asked someone to go out with me this saturday. she said she’ll look into it. i don’t care if it’s on or not. just being able to get her saying she’ll look into is enough. kohkohkoh! i’m a champ in my own battle already. i’m getting closer and closer. i can feel it. kohkohkoh! i can feel the rejection laa tu kan o_O

zombified pt. 2

Published on September 20, 2003 in General. 2 Comments

yesterday was the worst day ever

i had a good night sleep and i thought i could have a good start yesterday morning. it was raining early on, heavily. it was hard to get out of bed already. then the traffic, wargh. i left pretty early but still there were heavy traffic. i arrived on time, not that it’s sooo wrong to be late but i just hate it if i leave the house early and still can’t beat the traffic. wargh!

work is getting demanding, physically and mentally, yanoo laa i’m a lazy ass cow. at some point i saw my senior collegue browsing some Pangkor Island sites. heh! i told her Pangkor would be nice

at 4 pm i thought it was the end of the day but i was wrong. i had to attend a meeting regarding some crisis we’re having. aduhhh! lagi sejam je nak balik. the meeting ends at 5.30 pm and i didn’t get it at all. it was one important meeting but i just went blank. tak larat dah

so i get to go home, paling sedih. my parents went out to get my brother from utm. i forgot i didn’t have my keys. prepaid expired dah (eventhough i have 160 bucks lagi). and i was like argh!!! ingin bertukar menjadi raksasa dan memecahkan pintu rumah! i calm myself down, call my parents from a public phone and chill out in the car dengar lagu ska. they came back 10 minutes later and i felt like nothing happened as i sat down and turn on the tv. being home just makes everything right

yeay mlm ni boleh tgk bola dengan aman!

terlupa lak nak siapkan low-fidelity.com nih. ntah laa… malas gile and takde motivation. naruto chapter 186 belum keluar. alasan je tu. hehehe

zombiefied

Published on September 18, 2003 in General. 4 Comments

i’m worn out. my senior at work started asking me about any nice beaches she could go with her family to relax

i met natasha during lunch this afternoon. she even picked me up with her kancil turbo. sungguh seronok sebab mmg malas nak bawak kereta keluar gi lunch. thanks ehh natasha for the ride o_0

during lunch natasha mentioned about some gathering with ali, zek, ayunami, izan and other names i forgot tonight. i wanted to go coz i haven’t met ali before. it’s kinda hard to meet him coz he’s from way up north. pindah kl je laa wei…

i opted not to go at last. thought i should get home first, change, makan? dulu. but… dah sampai rumah, layan TSS sambil baring makan roti john. tak dpt laa nak bangun balik for the next ntah lah…

next time ye